Breathe

Breathe

And you keep running away from all the fears that you can’t hide,
And through the pain you feel inside and the tears you’ve cried tonight.
Cause you gotta breathe it in, when you feel so alone,
You gotta breathe again; until the pain is gone…you gotta breathe.
Breathe...

Every night you close your eyes
Hoping for a better tomorrow
You know deep inside all you need is an opportunity
And you will conquer every obstacle in front of u
But tomorrow comes
And you stuck with the same routine
Of not knowing where or how to start
Making your dreams come true
You too stressed and confused to think things through

Your dreams keep you warm at night
And at day you see them clearly
U keep thinking of what or who u’ve lost
Can’t help but think of how things will always be the same
Cause Every time you take a step forward u seem to take 3 steps back
And life is just black and white to you
And you stuck with the same routine
Of not knowing where or how to start
Making your dreams come true
You too stressed and confused to think things through

And you keep running away from all the fears that you can’t hide,
And through the pain you feel inside and the tears you’ve cried tonight.
Cause you gotta breathe it in, when you feel so alone,
You gotta breathe again; until the pain is gone…you gotta breathe.
Breathe...

Do U just feel or Believe?

Some say Faith is a gift and others say everyone has faith in God and until you search your soul you will never know its there.
Maybe Faith is a gift that most of us are yet to receive or never receive. And maybe we all have faith but we have not searched our souls yet.
No matter what the situation is I personally think Faith and God should be a feeling experience and not a believing experience. Because if you just believe and you don't really feel it, its not true at all. Its just like every normal things we do in our everyday lives. If you don't feel it you cant just believe it,its not really there then. Example Love, Happiness, Sadness, Depression. You cant just say you believe in Love when you don't really feel it. Or you say you are sad when you don't really feel sad.
There are so many religions in this world. We all have different opinions and beliefs and no matter which way u decide to follow. Be it you are religious, spiritual, or just a believer. You really need to feel what you believe in. God is love. And I say that because i feel it. Weather I am religious, or spiritual or just a believer. I know my God represents love, peace and Happiness. =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oFDKwvBxv4Q

And be happy we didn't end up looking like this

Dear Mummy / Daddy

..So I was talking to some friends and we were reflecting back on our pre-teen, teen and Adult lives I realized its all the same story in diff chapters

Dear Mummy / Daddy

We know U love Us

And we also know U adore us

Most importantly we know U would do anything in the world to make us happy

We know U don't like who we are dating now, or

Our past dating history

Because U think/ thought they were "no good" to us

But at that moment in time

Of course we did not listen

Not because we were being stubborn

But because at that particular time

We did not feel they were "no good" to us

U might not like our piercings

Or tattoos,

Or group of friends

Because u know that birds with the same feathers fly together

We totally know that

We know u don't want us to hang out too late

And u don't want us to drink or do drugs

Or have sex either, until we are married

And we know that sometimes u snoop around,

Our things, phones, and rooms.

Don't worry we know, but we sometimes don't mind

As long as u don't bring it up =)

We also know that U want us to date 1 person at a time

And U don't want us to talk back at you

Or raise our voices

And U are sometimes concerned about our reputation

We know that U want us to get quality education

So that we can live the lives we deserve

Be independent and hopefully give the world to U when u retire

We also know that u want us to one day settle down and have families of our own

So U can play with your grand kids

Dear Mummy /Daddy

We know exactly what U Want for us

Or maybe we might not realize until we are teen/ adults

But in our defence we will also like U to know some facts

We love and adore U too

We probably wont show it sometimes, but we do

Oh we know u don't like who we are dating, U don't have to like them, but u also should not think they are bad for us

Either ways, nobody will be good for us in your eyes

Let us learn from mistakes, or maybe not

Do not always let us know U are hovering over us

But deep down we love the fact that U are looking out for us

We sometimes do not like u keeping track of who we date or who we are talking to

And yes, sometimes just because we are dating someone does not mean they will end up being Ur daughter/son in law

We know whats good for us and we will not marry any "good for nothing" person

Even if U may not accept our piercing/ tattoos ,we love them

Some of our friends may have problems and U may not like them

But we love them. Not for what they are or what they do but who they are

Even though all birds with the same feathers flock together it does not mean we do what our friends do

Not all of us fall into that peer pressure mode

Sometimes parties don't start till 11 pm and bowling/skating/ movies are just better in the evenings,

Yes our friends drink, smoke and some even do drugs.

But if we haven't done any of that by now U should not worry about anything. Its a Lil too late for peer pressure

Sometimes we talk back because u will never see our view of things until we make U

And just because U see people flashing their body parts on T.V on Spring break or any vacation

does not mean we will. Come on!

More than anything we want to be successful and give you the world too.

BUT..

Did U know young men/ women sell drugs for money

Did U know young women/men have sex for money even though they are not branded "Prostitutes"?

Did U know young people use drugs more than u can ever imagine?

Did U know young people break into peoples homes just for the fun of it

Did U know young people go in and out of jail on a regular basis?

Did u know some young people kill other people all in the name of "beef"

Maybe U knew all of that and maybe not

But they are also peoples children

Parents who raised their kids up in humble backgrounds

Parents who never thought they will bail their kids from jail,

Parents who never thought their kids will constantly get high on drugs

Parents who never thought their kids will drink so much that they will prefer alcohol to any other drink

Parents who never thought their kids will prostitute for money

And parents who in their wildest dreams never thought they will identify their dead child

But it happens

And the point of me writing this is for some parents to realize that even if they don't get along with their pre-teens, teens, young adults or even fully grown adults that it can happen to anybody. Rich, Poor, Neglected, Loved. It can happen. Some problems are worse than other. But U should thank God for your little problem u have.

What ever it might be. =)

Besides u will get over it all, Just ask my mum.lol

I was watching a video someone posted on facebook of two grown ploiticians arguing at a hearing concentrating on "Corruption". Everything was going fine until a man started shouting 'Thief'! "Thief"! at the woman who was being interogated. One thing led to another and alas, two men started fighting. I wonder how they felt after that adrenaline rush. I must admit they were quite strong and fit considering they were old men. Anyway as if that was not exhausting to watch I watched other related links, and behold I saw Nigerian witch children. The name alone was intresting and scary, because I have never known anybody who is a witch or practices witchcraft. Besides my family condemns and stays away from anything that is or might be "evil". My curiosity got the best of me and I started watching the videos.I was expecting to see children dissapearing and appearing or doing something out of the blue, or something we all dont normally see. Frankly the only familar thing i know about witchcraft and wizadry is from Harry Potter. *Ahhh*

I was expecting a scene while a large circle filled with people stood watching. Thats what usally happens in Africa when something happens. But instead I saw a bunch of kids and young adults,rather hungry looking, battered, bruised, abused, unhappy looking, weak, the list goes on and on. Their parents or relatives either left them to die or sent them out of the house because they were "witches". Oh and if you are wondering how theier parents came to the conclusion that they were witches or supernatural? Thier local pastors told them that. I guess they have gifts of knowing who is a witch and wether they should be killed or not.

I personally think this is a bizarre and insane action.This kids are beaten up,cursed and shooed away because they do not matter to the community.

Some parents put nails in their childrens head, and some poured hot water or acid on them.Some tied them up and left them to die.This kids have gone through unimaginable things that I have never thought off in my life.Meanwhile the pastor is moving around and preaching. Preaching about how God wants us all to love one another . Yeah right! This is a very unique type of love I tell you. Lets asume withcraft does "exist", should this kids really go through what they went through? Do they deserve it? Do they deserve being isolated from other kids, family and human being just because they are witches? No human being or living things should be handled the way this kids were. Even if they have done really mean or evil things to people, which there aren't any record of. And even if they did mean things what happened to spanking? Or other types of punishment. But I am guessing these "pastors" decide on who should be eliminated and who should not. I honestly think they should be treated equally. Same with mental disabled people. I dont want to sound horrible here but they are challenged. Does that mean they should be deserted and killed?

With all these it all comes down to beliefs. Some people are ignorant and they do not know any better so you wouldnt really blame them, others just believe in fetish things like witchcraft, and they imply them in their daily life expample, when someone dies it has to be somebody who killed them. Or just a normal head or stomach ache has be related to somebody who they had a feud with. I respect peoples opinions and i will never look down on what people worship, or believe in. But when what people believe in hurts others,that has to be questioned. And some of these people just tie such unimaginable things to religion.

Some pastors have been arrested due to this unethical stuff. But I really hope the government sets a Law that protects all kinds of child abuse and "witchcrafts". It is obvious nobody can change a persons opinion but atleast we can try to stop such events from happening. If people choose to believe in what they believe in such as witchcraft, they are free to so so, as long as they dont harm anybody while doing so.

*frustrated* i want to see more of this people go to jail! And Please, can the government or community atleast provide shelter, food, and blankets for this homeless children. This is infact one of the sadest things I have ever watched and seen in my life. This has nothing to do with any christian bliblical teachings!

P.S--> I do not have any problems with any religion or beliefs. But when your beliefs hurt other people You have crossed the line.

God Bless this kids souls and I hope this group of people or anybody who does this kind of horrible things have a change of heart.

The link to the video on youtube--> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mZVVbGEOoCM

And for the record this does not only happen in Nigeria. its a World Wide thing

Have You all heard of those Good for nothing "boko haram" men?

I will write on them soon =)

I Run my own Race

I have been having a little crisis for a while now. I am majoring in Sociology with global problems and I love it. But my passion lies with Investigative journalism. It took me 3 years after graduating from high school to realize i want to be a journalist. I am practically a junior now and I love everything I have learnt so far. I can work anywhere I want after I graduate *UN* but all I really see myself doing is writting, and sharing differnt things to the world.

Sometime around june something came to my mind but I pushed that thought away..I wanted to have a degree in communications. I realized I would be much happier if I did what I love to do. Write and investigate! *Bliss*

My fear is basically starting all over and not graduating at the time I anticipated. And once I graduate with a degree in sociology I know I wont want to go back to school to get a major in journalism. I kindda told my mum about this and she said I do well in sociology but I will do great with journalism, deep down i knew she was right. She told me I could start all over besides I am still young. But I really want to graduate and get it over with school already. Only probblem is I might be happy with whatever comes my way after college but I will be a lot more happier with journalism.

Most of my friends are all graduating next year or the year after. I really dont want to be in school for a long time.

as much as i want to graduate and start working i really want to be happy with my chosen career.

So i have decided to pursue a degree in investigative journalism and keep sociology on pause. I can be done in 2years and still complete my courses and have a degree in sociology. double majors! How awesome. Why didnt i ever think of that?

Something my mum,family and friends kept saying to me was it doesnt matter when u graduate but what the outcome is. A lot of people graduate and have degrees but are still out there basically doing nuthn. Its not how fast you can get there but whats waiting on the other side of your journey. Now i am so excited because i will have double majors and not just in common fields. Beat that if you can. lol

If you have a passion for something but you are afraid to pursue it because of time or you think its too late. You better think again. Its never too late for an education and there is no need to rush because we are all going to be learining new things everyday for the rest of our lives. Time waits for nobody. You will be much ahppier doing what you love to do than instead of doing it for doing sake. And hey think about what will feed you and your family in the future.

Your happiness is greater than what people expect you to do or what you think you should do.

so run your won Race, I am running mine.

Have a blessed day people! =)

Ummy

Aztec Calender Aka The Sun Stone

I love all kinds of Aesthetics especially ancient arts. Sometimes i feel i should be in a destroyed city which existed thousands of years and has recently been found. Just digging up old beautiful crafted things..or mummies.lol

Aesthetics can be percieved in different ways to people. What i feel is beautiful might not be to you or intresting. Two years ago i would never have thought i was into art especially the so not called "modern" arts. I appreciate anything that people take time to make, Put thought, meaning, and importance to create.

Anyway I did a project on the Aztecs last semester and i was amazed. Because usually we only see "modern" paintings, carvings, figures, etc. And unfortunately some arts that are really facinating and intriguing are looked at as ugly or non modern.

The aztecs are precolumbian mesoamerican people of central mexico. Some say they dont exist anymore while some say there are few of them left. Whichever is true only fact is there are lots of Aztec arts found till this day from ruined ruines, and the remains of a city has actually been found too. Of all the crafts and carvings i have seen of the aztecs i loved the sun stone immediately i saw it because of not only the bright colors but also the little symbols and animals you will see if you look closely.

So the aztecs use this stone to measure days, months and years. There are so many animals and symbols on the stone that represent a lot of things. The aztecs actually see eagles, snakes and jaguars as the most important animals. Reason its called the sun stone is because if you look really closely at the stone there is a face in the middle. He is the sun god. He provides food and sunshine to the aztecs and according to the aztecs the world. They sacrifice slaves and prisoners on the stone and put the sacrifised persons heart on the face of the sun god. They believe if they dont feed and pray to the sun god he wont provide sunshine which is important in harvesting corn. Corn is a very important factor among the aztecs. They eat millet and make millet beer which comes from the corn.

I have to stop myself here because I can go on and on and this is not an essay..lol. Hope u enjoyed learning something new and if you will like to learn more about the aztecs and the aztec calender please visit

http://www.azteccalender.com/

Enjoy!

Ummy

Insomnia..

So..

Its 12:49am and I am not sleeping. Although I am very sleepy but I cant even go to sleep.

I woke up today at 4:00 am and since then only had a 15 min nap. I am sooo Exhausted, cranky, and very sleepy. And every time i close my eyes I seem to hear the clock ticking in the living room far away from my bedroom. And the crickets and other bugs seem so loud today.

To make things worse, I have no idea who is calling me at almost one in the morning, the callers number remains "withheld" and i am very sure it is somebody from Nigeria who has forgotten to check the time to realize its midnight here! Though Tempted to turn the phones ringer off I really cant just in case Someone calls me with an emergency. But in the meantime I guess I have to deal with the constant ringing.

1:00am..

I have been snacking on cookies and drinking Cold Lemonade. I know I should turn the TV on and watch recaps of shows I have missed until I sleep off but the TV doesn't really bother me anymore. I cant be Bugged about crazy reality shows at this time of the day. Thankfully I am talking to my friend Sadiq who is gisting me about his high school and Explaining to my why planes don't fly east of Asia to get to the U.S instead of going all the way through Europe. Because it does not really make sense why anyone flying from China or Japan flies across the world instead of going east. So Sadiq if You are reading this thank you for explaining a curiosity
I had for years. :)

1:13am

My sight is getting really blury So I am off to bed hoping To the Dear Lord that I will be fast asleep clutching my green fuzzy pillow that I am soo deeply attached to. If I dont sleep it I practically cant have a good night. Kindda Creepy. Night Night World!